I bet you all are almost as tired of hearing about this as I am of experiencing it.

Last night I was catching up on forums, and some of the stuff I was reading about sleep aids was really bothersome, and I realized that I should probably try to condition myself to sleep without them – doing without them might also help with the heart palpitation thing stopping sooner rather than later.  So last night I gave it a shot. 

Went to bed a little after 9.  Woke up with heart pounding at 9:45.  Moved to sofa at 10.  Woke up at 10:50 with heart pounding.  Woke up at 11:07 with heart pounding.  Woke up at 12:17 with heart pounding.  Woke up at 4:00 with heart pounding.  Woke up at 5:20 with heart pounding.  Hubby came in to get me up at about 6:20.  Do I feel like crap?  Hell, yeah!  Nightmares all night, sore back, headache, and, of course, more tired than I was when I went to bed.  I can’t predict the future, though.  If this means that I’ll be able to sleep without being startled awake all night and without pills even a few days or a week less than I would have, it’ll be worth it.

It just doesn’t feel worth it right at this moment.